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It’s been quite a journey! Last week, I received some long-awaited news regarding a biopsy, and the relief I felt was monumental. I hadn’t realized how much anxiety I had been holding in, trying to manage life on a daily basis while worrying about a potentially life-threatening illness. Naturally, it’s normal to feel anxious in such situations, but it took me a while to recognize the weight of that stress. Now that the good news has settled in, I feel more alive, energized, and optimistic than I have in ages. It’s a revelation to realize how much I had suppressed my feelings; I’m ready to embrace life and all its possibilities.
Interestingly, I’ve also noticed minor annoyances popping up lately—businesses closing right when I need to make an appointment, unanswered calls, my car breaking down, and malfunctioning electronics. In the past, I might have brushed these off or kept my frustrations bottled up. However, lately, I’ve found myself expressing my irritation in ways I never have before, and surprisingly, it feels liberating!
Previously, I believed that focusing on negativity would invite more of it into my life. While I still hold that belief, I’ve come to understand that it’s possible to acknowledge and express my frustrations while maintaining a focus on positivity. Ignoring what I deemed negative didn’t serve me; it only led to a disconnect from my own intuition. If I couldn’t acknowledge my true feelings, how could I expect to discern what was genuinely good or bad for me?
The irony is that I once studied as a Louise Hay trainer, advocating for self-love and the power of thoughts shaping our reality. While I consciously tried to steer my thoughts toward positivity, I was subconsciously stifling my true self. How could I trust my intuition if I dismissed my emotions?
Now, I’m learning to trust myself more than ever. This involves allowing myself to feel and express a range of emotions, even if it results in some intense reactions as I navigate this process. I believe that recognizing and acknowledging my frustrations will help me reduce the annoyances in my life. By accepting these feelings without judgment, I am learning to trust and accept myself more fully, leading to a more fulfilling existence.
I find myself grateful for these little irritations; they present opportunities for authentic self-expression. However, I must be cautious not to indulge in negativity too much; otherwise, I risk becoming perpetually grouchy!
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Ultimately, embracing every emotion—both positive and negative—will help me build a more authentic life.
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