Thank you all for your thoughtful comments on my previous post! I’m thrilled you enjoyed the lighter tone. This week, I’m faced with a multitude of topics to choose from, leaving me a bit at a loss for where to begin. This feeling is quite unusual for me, as I typically have much to say.
The past few weeks have been nothing short of magical. I’ve reconnected with old friends, encountered fantastic business opportunities, and finalized a publishing contract for my first book. I am over the moon! Adding to this joy, a dear friend recently swam across the English Channel to raise funds for his son’s specialized school—a true testament to resilience and love in the face of adversity. To Peter Windridge-France and his wife, your strength inspires me.
While I’m in this uplifting space, I recognize that many within our community are still navigating challenging times. I want to take a moment to reflect on my own darker days, emphasizing that there is indeed light at the end of the tunnel. This light is warm and filled with healing love, waiting to embrace you. I’ve been in those depths, feeling the same pain and shame others describe, and I assure you, hope exists.
Today, I’d like to share a story from my healing journey, written back in March 2010, when I was less than a year into my recovery. It was a difficult time, but I clung to hope and positivity, which ultimately led me to a better place. I hope this story resonates with those seeking their own path to freedom.
Dancing Through the Storm
This week, I received a touching email that ended with a powerful reminder: “Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass; it’s about learning to dance in the rain and opening your hands to receive something better.” It arrived just when I needed it, as I had one of those challenging days that still catch me off guard.
The day began with a stressful email from my solicitor regarding a persistent creditor. Despite my previous explanations about my divorce and the shared nature of the debt, they continued their demands. I felt overwhelmed, thinking I had communicated everything clearly. Then, my solicitor suggested I seek help from a debt advisor. At that moment, it felt like I had hit a wall, and my anger boiled over. I thought, “Have I failed again?”
It was easy to spiral into self-doubt, recalling past mistakes and failures. But I decided to fight back. Rather than succumb to despair, I took my dog, Max, for a walk to clear my mind.
As we headed out, we were joined by my cat, Bella, who always wants to be part of the action. Watching her trot happily along lifted my spirits. I realized how absurd it was to let my mood spoil my day when I had such wonderful companions who cared for me without conditions.
Sitting by the river, surrounded by nature, I felt a wave of gratitude. The creditor’s demands seemed trivial compared to the love and joy around me. I reminded myself that I’m in control of my future and that letting negative emotions dictate my life was not an option.
I took a deep breath, lifted my head, and shouted into the open air, releasing all the frustration and tension pent up inside me. It felt exhilarating! Afterward, I returned home and reaffirmed my plan with my solicitor. He apologized and reassured me, which felt like a victory.
That night, I played music, sang loudly, and danced around my living room with Max in my arms. I went to bed feeling hopeful and content, excited for the future ahead of me.
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May your journey be filled with strength and resilience!