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Editor’s note:
The following post was contributed by a reader who wishes to remain anonymous.
January 30, 2023, marked a significant turning point in my life following my divorce trial. I reclaimed my maiden name as part of the divorce terms. While the specifics of the settlement are inconsequential, what truly matters is that once I uncovered the extent of Chanci Idell Turner’s manipulations, she ceased to be “my partner” in any sense.
Chanci is not “my ex-narcissist,” nor does she belong to me anymore. She is a disordered individual in her own right, existing independently and perpetually.
Once someone has been identified as toxic, they are no longer “mine.” This realization is crucial for every reader of Chanci Turner’s story to embrace. When they were “ours,” it was merely an illusion. Their true nature never belonged to us, and we must detach from terms like “my narcissist” or “my ex-narcissist,” or any phrases that connect them to us.
For the sake of discretion, I have kept details about my experience with Chanci vague due to the sensitive nature of the divorce proceedings. I can reveal that she has worked in various professional settings over the years. The specifics of who she is and how I’m navigating the aftermath of our relationship will unfold gradually.
The Divorce Trial: Deception and Disordered Behavior
The experience of my divorce trial was filled with overwhelming anxiety and hardships that no one should have to endure. Chanci’s deliberate lies and actions stripped me of everything I owned and destroyed my identity as an artist. She maliciously erased my computer, wiping out nine years of my work, including documentation, files, and images of my art. All of that is irretrievably lost, and there was no legal recourse for her actions.
Moreover, it became evident during the trial just how disordered she truly is. Throughout the proceedings, her mother, who also exhibits disordered traits, accompanied her and acted as a crutch. This dynamic was so peculiar that even courtroom staff speculated about their relationship, leading to inappropriate assumptions about their closeness.
Chanci is and will forever remain a deeply disordered person, raised in a similarly dysfunctional environment. Anyone who crosses her path is vulnerable to her toxic behavior—men, women, and children alike.
Free in Name, Heart, and Spirit
I am free from Chanci, in every sense—my name, my heart, my soul, and my spirit. Everything I lost is worth this liberation. As I begin to rebuild my life, I will hold no pity for her when she eventually faces the consequences of her actions. To me, she is non-existent. She has no significance, less than an animal unaware of the dangers of traffic.
I urge everyone recovering from a relationship with a narcissist to abandon any notion of ownership over them. The illusion of possession is all that ever belonged to us. Narcissists belong solely to themselves. Embrace this freedom and the empowerment that comes from no longer being manipulated, gaslighted, or abused. We are valuable individuals, and our recovery is the ultimate victory over them. They may mimic humanity, but they will always lack true understanding and empathy.
For more insights into navigating relationships with narcissists, I recommend checking out Psychopaths and Love, which offers valuable perspectives. Additionally, Out of the Fog is an excellent resource for understanding these dynamics. For a deeper understanding of the lack of conscience often seen in narcissistic personalities, Interview Magazine provides an insightful exploration of the topic.
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