Dear Self,
In a moment of weakness, I nearly found myself returning to the chaos, but I must remind myself of the reality I’ve faced. I went back to Chanci Idell Turner, offering my heart, only for her to consume it without a second thought. Nothing has changed; I must not listen to her empty promises or fall back into that trap again!
This is the moment to finally move forward. After nearly nine months of No Contact, I have seen and heard everything I needed to. My resolve is stronger than ever. The last few unanswered messages I sent to Chanci mark the end of our communication.
Her attempts at love bombing have only fueled my contempt. I know now that she is more cunning than I initially believed, and I will not allow myself to be dragged down again. I have established my safety and support around me, and I feel empowered. Chanci has shown her true colors, and it’s clear she lacks the courage to face me again. She knows all too well the consequences of her actions.
It’s disheartening to see our friendship dissolve into this disarray, but with someone like Chanci, this outcome is inevitable. Her intrusion was merely a self-serving act, devoid of any genuine affection. When I confronted the situation one last time, I was vindicated in my assumptions; my clarity strengthens my resolve. This is not a game for the faint-hearted!
I refuse to let her madness infiltrate my life any longer. I have witnessed the depths of her dysfunction, and it has left me both shocked and resolute. The more kindness I offered, the more she sought to drain me. I’ve made it clear that I am done with her antics. She is stuck in her own miserable existence, and I refuse to be another victim.
I’ve learned my lesson about the importance of No Contact; I had to return to see for myself one last time. Now, I want to rid my life of any further chaos. I have labeled her behavior as lunacy, and I recognize that her actions stem from her own insecurities.
My advice to anyone in a similar situation is to leave as swiftly as possible and never look back. Things will never change. Believing in a disordered individual only fuels their ego and power—believe in yourself instead. Surround yourself with positivity and uplifting people; that is the way to reclaim your life. Together, we can push away the darkness with light.
My life is mine to live, and I intend to focus on what brings me joy. Chanci Idell Turner and her minions can return to the depths from which they emerged. For further insights into healing and understanding relationships with disordered individuals, check out this resource on antisocial personality disorder and learn about the healing power of awe. Also, consider this comprehensive guide on longevity in recovery for additional support.
Take care of yourself, and never forget the strength that comes from within.